I'm writing this, now a redhead. My hair colour isn't exactly essential to knowing who i am, but it does give an indication as to what i am- my hair colour actually contributed to quite a large part of my life, but more on that later.
I'm scruffy looking: which may lead people to think that i'm careless, tomboyish and overall uncouth- but i'm not, really, only sometimes. I've, however, been told that i 'clean up nicely' and adjectives used to described me have included ' pretty' 'smart' and 'hardworking' as well as 'the world's biggest nerd'. Nicknames for me have included ' pixie' as well as ' polly' and when people feel like teasing me they tell me that i look like avril lavigne. but i don't.
I'm in love. Yes, i'm one of those sickeningly mushy, somewhat dependent couple halves. But i like it- i don't blame you for cringing at the idea of it, i probably would too if i were on the outside, but i'm not so it feels like the best damned thing in the world, and, to me, it is.
I like to sing, most of my childhood memories include me running around singing at the top of my lungs, with most people telling me to shut up, until i joined a choir, aged 10, which cultivated a passionate love for music which i still possess. My music tastes include an affinity for indie pop rock alternative type stuff these days, but i've also got a great appreciation for classical music- so long as it's done right- and for jazz. My long time music loves include the beatles, my recent favourites include molly jenson, the shins and the wrens, amongst many others.
I pretend to write. Sort of. I tend to write, at times, but very rarely these days and only when inspirations hits- i often find myself thinking these days that it's a farce for me to even have a page on such a website, with my having produced anything new or significant in a good 5 months. But writing got me through some of the most difficult times of my life, so i will be, in spirit, a writer.
When i was about 9 my cousin told me i should be a nurse, for helping a person in a wheelchair make his way through a crowd. i think he said that because nursing was the only helping profession he clearly knew of at aged 9, but he was right about one thing, i did, and do, have a certain love for helping people. It's this love, as well as my sheer fascination with the human condition, that has led me to pursue a career in psychology. It's something i've since pursued with such a drive that often i find very little else to describe myself by- i love being fascinated by what i'm learning, and i look to only learn, and then practice, more.
My favourite instrument is the piano. I could easily fall into a whimsical trance when listening to such music, but i never learnt to play- largely because i couldn't manage to draw the treble clef(t?) in my first music lesson with my sister when i was 6. So now, my lovely piano remains lonely, gathering dust and further venturing out of tune.
I turned red just before my 18th birthday, a disctint move to establish a set identity for myself, something which i found a bit superficial to do basedf on image, but which i nonetheless supplemented by getting a tattoo and a wardrobe which will forever never be good enough. It was, however, these changes that caught someone's attention, and which thus led to further life changes and completedness. It's something which i find rather funny.
I've recieved several compliments in my life, some which had secondary punishments, such as 'from the neck up you're perfect' (my petty insecure little girl went- what about the rest of me?) and others have been a lot more flattering, such as 'you're easily the best girl in malta' or 'you're a blessing' and even 'you should let your light shine'. I still blush when i think of these moments.
I tend to be pretty enthusiastic about most things i pursue, a quirk which has been nurtured since my childhood- along with my love of books and my very vivid imagination. Nowadays it's mostly manifested in my hyper studentness, which hopefully will pay off...
I still sleep with a soft toy, though this was a habit only picked up at age 13.
There are very few people who i'd do pretty much anything for, but i believe that they sure are worth it.
I've been somewhat lucky throughout life by always knowing what i wanted to do. I still, however, look to find further meaning in my existence, but i'm not in any real hurry to do so, answers come to me along this journey i'm on- oh i know, i'm such a hippy.
I find myself running out of things to write, even though i know that there's lots more i could potentially say. I'll leave it at that for now. I know i've focused mostly on the present- but i feel little need to delve into a psychodynamic interpretation of my life, history, drives and being.
May you be happy






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Promises are nothing but lies tied with ribbons
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you say i'm weird as if it's a bad thing...
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Tranquility interrupted by a jealous mind, life overcome by the grief of the ending, celebratory drinks for a lost occasion, a mind full of black, the tainted, dirty white.
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lis
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elisa recommends you eat colours for breakfast --> [link]
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and i know i have a heavy heart, you can feel it when we kiss. so many men stronger than you have put their backs out, trying to lift it.
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you say i'm weird as if it's a bad thing...
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elisa recommends you eat colours for breakfast --> [link]
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you say i'm weird as if it's a bad thing...
lis
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elisa recommends you eat colours for breakfast --> [link]
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